Brazzil

I have stayed almost 11 months in Brazil fulfilling my ultimate dream.  I have another four days until I arrive back in my home city, State College.  Four days until I am rudely awakened and forced to return to reality. The other night, a biting thought kept me from sleeping. The smells, the sights, the tastes, and as I took a deep breath, stopping to remember the feelings, and all the people, everything...will change. 

We have traveled to various different places trying to see the country we have plopped ourselves into and have returned to the same town over and over that we called 'home' for a year. Only this time, the thought of returning is wrapped up in constant uncertainty. 

We might never see any of the people again in our lives, never eat mandioca cooked with rice, never swim with piranhas or see the faces of the Amazonian children playing in the village. 

The idea of returning seems so easily obtainable right now, with all of our friendships so fresh, and the people so willing to have us stay in their homes.  But we'll go back to our home countries, work will resume for some of us, college will start for others, and the people we once called our friends a year ago will be the same people who drove up to say goodbye wishing you a good trip, a happy year. 

Our lives will become grooves that we can't get out of, routines we are afraid to leave.  We will write e-mails, the occasional letter, maybe give a call once in a while. Then once memories become a little more distant the friendships a little less personal, the e-mails will slow, the calls will come to a halt, and there will be almost no trace of a written letter. 

Of course we will remember the best friends we made, all the times having tererê talking about how many kids you want, or how horrible of a president Bush is, forever burned into our memory. 

We will have the bracelets, the scars, longer hair, maybe a flag, our jackets with the pins from the other students that will always be there to remind us of the 11 months spent in paradise.  It's hard to see right now, the changes we have gone through, but we are entirely different people. 

We have seen things that we won't see for the rest of our lives...  When we get home, we will try to relate what we have experienced, showing pictures, explaining, flailing your hands in air trying to show your friends how it was to jump 18 feet into a river, but we will fail because each and every adventure was such a unique experience.

The feel of your feet hitting the water, a soft sheet of cold stone, feels real, and when you remember it, you ask yourself how your listener doesn't understand you as you stand in a puddle of your own memory.

We have created lives in each of our host countries.  Exceptionally different from the ones we have put on pause.  We have all mastered the languages, the customs, having turned into the very people we have been influenced by during these precious months so far from familiarity. 

We were only babies when we arrived, but over the course of less than a year we have grown and matured into young adults who's views and choices will be forever changed by the cultural windows that we have opened. 

I know that I have had to make some pretty heavy-duty choices, and I know you all have had to do the same thing...  We have grown in ways only our family can see.  Maybe your hair is longer, maybe you bought new clothes, maybe you dove into shallow water and hit your head on the sand and developed a nasty scar directly in the middle of your forehead, no wait, that was me, but the changes in character, in the ability to deal with the hardships of life, how you view the situations of every day, these are the things that you can't see yet, but when you arrive back in your city, your family will make little side comments, "Torey, you have changed so much." 

How is it that we can leave our lives, however temporarily, to lead new lives in a strange atmosphere then be asked to leave, once again, without the promise of return?  These last couple weeks have been filled with sweet goodbyes, promises, and tears...

The end will always be a hard truth, but when you have a year in front of you, it seems like forever, and when it's behind you, only a memory, only a blink of an eye, its not enough. This past year has changed who we are, and has enriched our lives. 

I stayed awake that night thinking about all the people who helped to mold me, to teach me everything I needed to know to become a different human being. The thing is, they don't even know they did all this. 

How do I say goodbye?  How do I thank them? For each person I met here they will say goodbye to me, but I will have to say goodbye to many people.  They're not goodbyes so much as they are delayed see-you-laters.  After so much time, the days seemed infinite. The inevitable end to this journey was never really considered. 

We developed habits, getting up, going to school, having água de coco every day after lunch, the lives we have created have become so much a part of who we are.  I was sure I'd wake up in my stiff, sheet-less bed tomorrow to the smell of rice and garlic and the sound of food frying. 

I wasn't looking forward to the daily hike I had to make downtown, sweating in the relentless heat tomorrow.  I was so sure that next week I would go to the movies with my friends and see Batman Begins.  I was positive that I had to buy that one kid a candy bar.  But now the harsh reality that all this would eventually end has arrived. 

What a slap in the face.  All the tomorrows from here on out are filled with mystery. The only certainty is that tomorrow, I won't be here.

My life will be turned upside down for the second time. I have already caught myself trying to make plans for next weekend, having to stop myself and remember one more time, that I wont be here, able to do this anymore. 

But I always think to myself, man, how lucky am I to have been given the chance to see and experience what I have... 

The Amazon, Brazil's capital, Brasília, the Brazilian beach Balneário Camboriú, Paraguay and all the little things you see around town. Not too many can say that they have realized their biggest dreams and have been a part of others. 

The most precious gifts we could ever bring back from any place we return from are the memories. Each smile, each laugh, permanently locked into our minds. We can always look back and remember the times we had, the life changing events and the priceless moments, snapped...just like a picture in your head.

I have to thank Rotary for giving me the helping hand I needed to realize my dream. Without Rotary I would have had a very different year, and not necessarily a better one. Something my friend, Thayla, in Brazil told me one time is, "Pessoas são como música, entram em nossas vidas e deixam sinais, raramente encontramos pessoas assim que deixam nossas vidas mais felízes."

"People are like music, they enter in and out of our lives and leave signals, rarely do we meet people like this, that leave our lives filled with so much more happiness."

Thanks to Rotary, and my parents I have been able to meet some really incredible people from all around the world and the memories will always run through my heart.

C. Torey Novak is an American who spent a year in Brazil from June 2004 to June 2005 as an exchange student.  He can be contacted at ctn5005@psu.edu.

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written by Guest, December 13, 2005

A perfect Christmas carol for Rio!!

When I was small I believed in Santa Claus
Though I knew it was my dad
And I would hang up my stocking at Christmas
Open my presents and I'd be glad

But the last time I played Father Christmas
I stood outside a department store
A gang of kids came over and mugged me
And knocked my reindeer to the floor

They said:
Father Christmas, give us some money
Don't mess around with those silly toys.
We'll beat you up if you don't hand it over
We want your bread so don't make us annoyed
Give all the toys to the little rich boys

Don't give my brother a Futebol outfit
Don't give my sister a cuddly toy
We don't want a jigsaw or monopoly money
We only want the real McCoy

Father Christmas, give us some money
We'll beat you up if you make us annoyed
Father Christmas, give us some money
Don't mess around with those silly toys

But give my daddy a job 'cause he needs one
He's got lots of mouths to feed
But if you've got one, I'll have a machine gun
So I can scare all the kids down the street

Father Christmas, give us some money
We got no time for your silly toys
We'll beat you up if you don't hand it over
We want your bread so don't make us annoyed
Give all the toys to the little rich boys

Have yourself a merry merry Christmas
Have yourself a good time
But remember the kids who got nothin'
While you're drinkin' down your wine

Father Christmas, give us some money
We got no time for your silly toys
Father Christmas, please hand it over
We'll beat you up, so don't make us annoyed

Father Christmas, give us some money
Don't mess around with those silly toys
We'll beat you up if you don't hand it over
We want your bread, so don't make us annoyed
Give all the toys to the little rich boys

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Yawn.......
written by Guest, December 13, 2005

I could hear the violins playing when I read this post....pass me a bucket, blerghhh........talk about overkill........

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Yikes...
written by Guest, December 13, 2005

This was your first trip abroad right ?!

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Yawn. Yikes. Tiresome.
written by Guest, December 13, 2005

You people are cold. Keep your rude comments to yourselves.

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Impressive
written by Guest, December 13, 2005

Nice piece I thought. Not over the top or overkill in any sense, in fact very true. Would have been nice to hear a little more about where you were, what you did, some more stories about the actual people etc. rather than just the emotions though!

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At last a positive comment,from the rare
written by Guest, December 14, 2005

I feel quite happy somebody liked Brazil,because most of the articles talks about negative things in Brazil , with rare exceptions like this, thanks for sharing your good experience of Brazil.

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People are like, er muzak
written by Guest, December 14, 2005

The poor romantic fool.........won´t be long before he crashes down to s**t street, looks back at this post and thinks "what the hell was that all about!" Gotta love students! They think every time they put pen to paper they´re creating original artwork that leaves the reader gasping in awe at their poetic creativity! Heehee.

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Maisy\'s Rainbown Dream
written by Guest, December 15, 2005

This article is more surreal than a book that I recently bought to my little child.

It is about a little mouse who dreams he is living in Rainbowland. The title is "Maisy's Rainbown Drean".

The author reminds me poor little Maisy in his rainbown dream.

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That guy is an a*****e to say that.
written by Guest, December 15, 2005

No need to elabotare further. The title says it all.

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I think it is fine
written by Guest, December 15, 2005

you think it is drama but you wanna see drama listen to the Brazilians in pompano Beach talk about the US and trust me it sounds as much poetic....what I am saying is that to Americans Brazil is a country which is exciting and beautiful because it is foriegn just like the US is exciting to Brazilians because of the same reasons....so let people dream you negative little macacos...

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Pathetic
written by Guest, December 15, 2005

Another gringo tricked into believing Brazil is some kind of paradise because he happened to get treated special by the Brazilian hordes, the most conniving bunch of racial-complex ridden people on Earth.

Throw them a white gringo from North America, Europe, or Australia and the promise of marriage or riches, and they'll assume the position like the mentally colonized macacos they are.

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a comment on brazilians
written by Guest, December 16, 2005

i'm generally very impressed with the calibre of the comments on the message boards of this website. especially from the brazilians. they aren't deluded by their own country - but then again you would have to be pretty stupid not to know how bad your country can be after living there for 20 or 30 years. the bad memories always stick better than the good ones though. this is true for most of the world. i'm irish and have lived in england and america. i was initially very excited before going to both places and the first year of each stay in these countries was quite good fun. after that you get bored. that doesn't seem to happen to americans though, at least to the same extent. they all say that they love america and that it's the best country in the world (in general). you just can't find any good cynics there. they're all superficially happy, like the idiot who wrote this piece.

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On my own behalf
written by Guest, December 17, 2005

Guys, I appreciate the feedback, especially the negative things. It is an irrevocable truth of the universe that it is impossible to get everyone to like any one thing, or person. Every country has its ups, and its downs, and in this piece I tried to show my audience the ups, the good things, and I tried to help them imagine the pain and/or rapture of living abroad. I don't know how some of you can openly criticize me like you did, I mean, I will learn from what you all tell me, and appearently to some, what I write is the worse piece of writing ever, but to others, and this is why I write, it is touching, and brings back special memories or emotions. Yea, I can write about how I saw a man splattered against the windsheild of a truck and how no brazilians or americans alike, stopped to get help, or how I heard a woman getting rapped and when I went to see, she was laying there almost dead. Yes, that must be what you want to hear. I am proud of where I come from, even if it is run by a money-grubbing oil fiend, but what I would like to read is your articles about a country you've seen, not smart coments on how you think I like my country too much. Anyway, thanks for the derrogatory coments, I appreciate the criticism, keep the hot air flowing... Toy

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clarification
written by Guest, December 17, 2005

i'm glad Toy here clarified his experience of brazil. he gave us a glimpse of what he actually saw, which was as far removed from the fantasy version he had the nerve to submit to this website. the problem with him is that he WILL NEVER LEARN. i know that because at the end of his confession he says that he is proud of where he comes from even if it is run by a corrupt mental defect. it's like a german in 1939 saying that he is proud of being german even though he knows it's being run by a racist megalomaniac. you're just a typical american - it's always "my country, right or wrong". preface your articles with a disclaimer saying that what you write is pure fiction, because it can't help anybody connect to their "special memories".

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foreign student
written by Guest, December 19, 2005

i am not an exchange student but am here by myself. i have many brazilian friends from all walks of life here. a few are rich, some are middle class and most are just surviving ... i stay in a shared apartment working and studying and basically doing everything myself. i have seen much of the differences in the lifestyles here between the ´have its´and ´have nots´ (i stayed with a friends family for 6 months+ before moving out) and travelled around a bit with some brazilian friends. and yes i have been assaulted 3 times before on the streets and seen armed robberies happening. no i dont drive, i take buses and walk on the streets. and yes i think this article is so surreal, it reminds me of grimms fairytale, a fantasty taken right out of 1001 arabian nights(which i still have fond memories of) and explored in depth here.

still i would like to say nice effort to torey, although i wish he could have ..should have done better .. as the only two places i can see it coming from is a childrens book or a piece taken right out of a travel agents brochure.

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TOreY Story - \"On my own behalf\"
written by No More Free Speech, December 19, 2005

Dude, you´re missing the point on all this "feedback". Your article seemed so full of itself it almost disappeared up its own ahole. If you really want to write such a sensitive, personal log of your own experiences, don´t hang it out to dry in public. Instead send it off to Readers Digest, National Geographic or Haemorrhoids Weekly. You should know it but you ain´t no poet. I mean c´mon who writes "we were only babies when we arrived.."and "puddle of your own memory.." Classics! Clichémania! Don´t give up your day job.

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Brazil, what a s**thole
written by Guest, December 21, 2005

Is that what you dicks want to hear? Would he have been better off saying "f**k guys, don't come to this piece of s**t country Brazil, it really sucks!" What, like people don't know Brazil has problems? What the hell is wrong with you that you can't accept even a little bit of praise about your country? Thank God that most Brazilians aren't like this...

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Prev. post
written by Guest, December 22, 2005

Looks like the previous post also missed the point of some of the earlier critical comments.
It´s not what he said - it´s how he said it!
Nice try, thanks for playing the game but in your confused, tormented rage, it all went over your head!

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written by Guest, December 22, 2005

I am an American gringa who has lived in Brazil for 4 years now and have NO desire to return to America. I love my life in Brazil, the warm generous people, the weather, the slow pace of life. What's not to like? I am aware of the social problems of Brazil but there are many social problems in America too.

If you don't like Brazil you're welcome to go to America and work those 80 hour weeks like I used to. You can have Los Angeles. Give me Rio any day. At least in Rio you actually get to use the beaches not like in California where the 80 hour work week allows only seagulls to sun themselves in the sand.

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CALA BOCA!
written by Guest, December 28, 2005

All of our homelands have ups and downs - shut up and do something about it. Impeach Bush! Sell your SUV! Boycott Walmart! Do whatever - just quit whining.
I appreciated Torey's sentiments - even if a bit cheesey. I spent a year abroad in Floripa. If nothing else, a year in Brasil taught me that there is a whole world out there and we should learn to appreciate the diversity it offers.

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We live in the earth planet
written by Guest, December 29, 2005

I can´t believe some people waist their time to see only bad things , it doesn´t matter where we come from or whatever the global gangsters do but we all belong to the same country. I feel quite happy there are independant newspaper like this that publish articles like we are commenting weather people like or not . Congratulations Brazzil magazine the the person who wrote this article.
Brazilian man from earth planet

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previous post
written by Guest, December 29, 2005

we're not criticising for no reason. we're trying to set the record straight.
t novak's post is rubbish. it's completely unbalanced and would induce people to go to brazil under false pretext. I and everyone would love to visit a country he described but it doesn't exist. ironically, it doesn't even exist in his own head. he just made it up to get his article published here probably. maybe he can't face reality or is denial but he can't tell the truth. I think the problem is with american society though. it's not a very nice place to live but they are in denial about that. everything is superficial - but that's the way they like it. thinking about what's going on would only get in their way of enjoying "the game" with a few beers. every country is trying to follow the american economic model so our children may all think and write crap articles like Toy in the future. how does the Nirvana song go again? I think i'm dumb...maybe I'm happy - kurt was talking about you yankee.

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Prev. Post 29/12 17:32
written by Guest, December 31, 2005

Totally agree with what you said. It gets so tiresome sometimes reading all these dreamy, fantasy like comments. Especially from these wasters that briefly come to Brazil, loads of Daddies cash in their pockets, claim to see the "real" Brazil knowing full well that they´ll be safely back in their own countries within the year. Oh and of course they throw in a few Portuguese words in their article, thinking that it gives them a little more credibility. Yeah right, you poser. You´re just another cash rich American tourist, don´t make out that you´re some pioneering adventurer who´s discovered the Promised Land!

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All true, and...
written by Guest, January 01, 2006

I think the most ironic part of the sap piece was at the end when he thanked Rotary for sending him on his fantasy voyage to Brazil. For those of you who don't know, Rotary is club for wealthy American businessmen to sit around and feel smug while eating fancy dinners. Frankly, when considering the ample amount of cynical, political dialogue published on this site, I'm shocked they published this corny article here.
-An Annoyed American

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he should be shot
written by Guest, January 06, 2006

i think tory should be locked up in a brazilian prison for a few years to really experience brazilian culture. he sounds like a spoilt rich kid s**t, a money grabbing bastard, a selfish narrow minded f**kwit who will no doubt lead his country in the future, since he has all the aforementioned necessary qualifications to become a leader in his country. i hope you took pictures when you saw that guy raping that girl. bastard.

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On my own behalf
written by Guest, January 06, 2006

Well, I've finally come to grips with the comments. They're mostly true. Yes, I am a spoiled, rich and over-emotional American lad. Yes, Rotary is a club for smug, wealthy American businessmen. No, I don't have any idea what the hell I was talking about when I wrote this article.
...But guess what?
I'm am a spoilt, rich and over-emotional American lad, so I can travel to exotic developing countries under an umbrella of safety and write whatever my little heart desires afterwards! And the poor people I saw living in huts while I was in the s**thole country can't. And most of you who left your comments probably can't either, and that's why you post negative stuff about my impressive prose, cause you're all jealous!
Deez nuts, suckas!
Next stop: Columbia!
Toy

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you\'re a loser
written by Guest, January 07, 2006

Toy you're a loser. you travel to countries you dont even like. i know the life you live and you can keep it.

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You didn\'t deserve this experience, foo
written by Guest, January 08, 2006

I can't believe you spent 11 months in Brazil and still have this pathetic attitude. It's because of rich f**ks like you that there is so much inequality - greed. I bet your parents exploited hundreds of Chinese workers running some filthy American company to make all their cash. I actually didn't mind your article, I felt pretty f**king good living there too; still I learnt from what I saw around me. You clearly didn't.

Why don't you channel some of mom & dads into doing something decent for the world? You're a f**kwit and I hope you don't survive your next tourist trip to South America.

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what a bastard
written by Guest, January 09, 2006

nothing could more clearly show what a f**ked up world this is than the very being of Toy. he's a rich kid cunt who has the money to go wherever he wants, pay to f**k some kids because it would "awesome" to tell his friends about latino pussy and understands nothing about the damage he actually causes. he's a thick block of s**t who, if he were poor, would be a grunt in the frontline in iraq getting his legs blown off but who would be proud of that coz George W is a good american patriot. what a toe rag. i sometimes wish for a nuclear bomb to destroy estad uni but i'd suspect the bastards would survive like c**kroaches. i generally feel that stereotypes are false but i'm beginning to think that all the stereotypes we hold of americans are on the mark. they are ignorant, selfish, self-obsessed, image obsessed, money obsessed, uncultured s**ts.

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\"what a bastard\"
written by Guest, January 10, 2006

Talking about dropping a nuke on the Etad Unis is some stupid s**t, and you're the ignorant prick for saying it. America isn't all money grubbers and spoiled dumbasses (although I admit there are alot), and you just essentially wished for the deaths of a whole multitude of humble people of multi races and backgrounds who are simply trying to make a better life for themselves. YOU are the GW Bush, the Adolf Hitler, the dumbass for saying that. See ya in hell, war monger.

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No good cynics in America?
written by Guest, January 10, 2006

As a tortured American cynic, times are ripe for me- times are dark. I resent hearing that there are no good cynics in America. While I don't live in America right now, I am an all-American cynic. It takes me 3 shots of Brandy to get out of bed. I believe my home country is on a fast-pace to isolated self-destruction. My country sucks, but so does yours. Trust me. I'm a realist. Oh, and I'm so cynical that I put up a fake post from that little Novak bastard (the one that talks about going to Columbia) just to piss people off and laugh at the consequences.
Deez nuts.

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what a bastard
written by Guest, January 11, 2006

it's true. all countries suck - simply because everyone hates what they have and want what they dont have. some of the sentimental bulls**t written on this website paint brazil as a paradise. perhaps a brazilian would say the same about america. perhaps they would realise how much better their own country is after emigrating. it's a personal thing. but you should at least tell the truth about it and be able to compare objectively. as for the "cynic" it sounds as if he is your typical "all american" cynic -a cynic shouldn't be any nationality or he's not a cynic. he is just doing it because it's "cool" to be part of the "underground". It's the usual bulls**t - all veneer and mushy wood underneath.

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Re. Fake Post
written by Guest, January 11, 2006

It was obvious it wasn´t from the original poster, for one his name is Torey not Toy. Secondly, your graphic language and agressiveness was way out of character for that lightfooted fairy. Thanks anyway, your vindictiveness impressed me and it´s something that I´d definitely consider doing too, just to wind up the natives!

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Re: what a bastard
written by Guest, January 11, 2006

"a cynic shouldn't be any nationality or he's not a cynic"
-That statement is matter of opinion, and it makes no sense. Nationalities are an unexcapable fact of life. Look at your passport- it won't say "cynic" in place of nationality because you were cool enough to emerge from this underground you speak of, and graduated to veneer wood status. Underground? ugh, douche bag.
Also, while I feel it's important to address misguided posters like yourself, I think we should all get back on track and and tackle the real issue at hand- which is the ultimate misguided pos(t)ers, Mr. Novak. Why won't he respond to his criticism again? The kid's been getting some good pointers.

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what a cynic is
written by Guest, January 12, 2006

a cynic is someone who doesn't hold onto the thoughts that others have forced onto him and tries to see why someone would want to control other people. the cynic always finds that there are interests behind the supposed neutral advice. Nationalities are an inescapable fact of life? have thick, stupid and american are you? who the f**k uses the word douche bag anymore except kelly osbourne. she's probably your role model you moran. nationalities haven't existed since the beginning of time and won't exist forever. Novak is a complete s**t, but you're quickly reaching his status. idiot.

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Re: what a cynic is
written by Guest, January 12, 2006

Actually, the Bible, er, that is the unfathomable word of God, says that nationalities are a fact of life. Somewhere in the back of Ezekial I think. Also in the afformentioned text, somewhere in Revelations if I'm not mistaken, it describes a cynic as:
Deez Nuts sucka!
By the way, what the hell's a "moran"? I have an idea, and it involves your mom, but I can't believe you would bestow such an honor upon me. Thanks, I'm...honored.
Of course, the Book of Mormon teaches us that Kelly Osbourne is the reincarnation of Joseph Smith. So with your logic, I guess that would make me a Mormon. Hey, maybe that's what you meant to call me instead of "moran." But nah, I'll stick with the theory involving your mom, it suits you better.
I'd also be thrilled if I could be on the same par with Novak. That's some impressive prose that little cracker drenched us with. And look at the wonderful dialogue it inspired!

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RE: Re: what a cynic is
written by Guest, January 12, 2006

i think you mean "unfallable" word of god. good response though. i think the guy obsessed with the nationalities and "what a cynic is" thing is pretty pathetic. probably one of those wanna-be pseudo intellectuals. thinks he's smarter than the world, would suck his own c**k if he could, etc.

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what a cynic is
written by Guest, January 14, 2006

the last two posters are idiots. one said unfathomable and the other said unfallable and they're both wrong. i could tell them the correct word but why would i want to teach two brain-dead c**ksuckers like them - if they're brazilian, their inability to spell is understandable but their belief that they can shows them to be arrogant "wanna-be pseudo intellectuals" - they use big words but dont know their meaning. If they're english speakers....well God help them - they've probably got an IQ of 10. By the way, i enjoyed shooting my cum all over your mother's face...stupid bitch.

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Prev. \"what a cynic is...\"
written by Guest, January 14, 2006

Look, just stop this now! I AM his mother and I don´t approve of those harsh, vulgar words! Anyway, if you remember you actually had trouble getting that floppy worm erect and when you did you only managed to ejaculate a small cobweb. And you still haven´t paid me!
End of conversation.

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on my own behalf
written by Guest, January 14, 2006

Ironically, I'm his father. That's right, my bastard son has been criticizing my impressive prose and ruffling the feathers of wannabe pseudo intellectuals whom I suspect of from Grande Bretagne. And my wife, his mother, has been toying around with the afformentioned person- an impotent soul who think's he's Webster's Dictionary (see 'what a cynic is').
-Toy

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brazilian humour
written by Guest, January 14, 2006

brazilian humour, like most mediterranean humour, is simply crap. your comedians are incapable of making a decent joke and most jokes involve either word play or a "funny incident" which no one but a mental retard would find funny. also, i should point out that you admitted your mother was a whore in your pathetic attempt to turn the joke on me. so the joke's on you - i creamed your slut whore mother and didn't pay her. Ha Ha. it doesn't get any better than this.

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Prev. post - Mother speaks again!
written by Guest, January 15, 2006

I may very well turn tricks to earn a dollar but at least it´s a job. If you think little of me, then your pride in not paying me for my services makes you even worse. Who rips off an ageing hooker and boasts about it? I guess you´ve actually achieved your full potential so maybe you should feel proud. BTW, I´ve got crabs (pubic lice).

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re: brazilian humor, er humour
written by Guest, January 15, 2006

Well I'm not sure about the "mother speaks again" poster, but I can safely say that my "humour" is neither brazilian nor mediterranean. Meanwhile, you are clearly British, which is surprising. I must say that I find British humor to be one of the best kinds the world over. But you sir, do it no justice. You held my respect for a few posts- I even felt as though you were a worthy adversary- but you reverted to low-brow sexual jokes so quickly that, well, all of my respect for you ended up accompanying your jokes down the toilet.
Yes, you made these posts fun for me for a while. No more. Try to get your wit back, k? Thanks Jeeves .

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Re. Brazilian Humour, er humour
written by Guest, January 17, 2006

Sir, your pompous post just really saddens me. You are acting like the sort of twit that I hoped to leave behind and certainly avoid in Brazil. The toilet humor comments were crude replies to some other vulgar posts here and not meant to be the cleverly crafted wit you have become accustomed to enjoy! Apologies for disappointing you, I do agree with you on low brow humour, it ain´t big and it ain´t clever. Anyway, not even Python got it right every time.
We are so off topic here.........

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stop saying we\'re off topic
written by Guest, January 17, 2006

why do you keep replying to "off-topic" posts and then plead to get back on topic. why don't you have a little discussion about novak's article with all your happy-go-lucky bum buddies and let us talk about the fact that brazilian and mediterranean humour is so childish. in fact, one could say that the mediterranean approach to life is conducive to nothing productive except the exercise of one's vocal chords. the italians and the spanish are great examples - they'll talk forever about corruption in their country, how terrible it is, how they need to elect an honest man (like the speaker) and then at the next election you find they've elected a plastic orange coloured megalomaniac as a leader. talking gets them nowhere. same in brazil. things are different in the UK and US. i'm not ignoring the problems but I am saying that if there is hope in the world it is in them getting things right. brazil, spain, portugal, italy will only ever exist. they will never contribute to the betterment of humanity - they're too busy talking crap and eating 6 hour meals.

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we´re off topic
written by Guest, January 17, 2006

Haven´t heard the phrase "bum buddies" in years! I think we used to use it in a derogatory sense in the playground to describe those schoolmates who we felt may have homosexual tendencies. Now "happy-go-lucky bum buddies" that´s a new one!
Your post is poorly written, cronically lighweight and carries about as much validity as the drunken ramblings of some washed out, ill educated alcoholic loser, persistenlty comatosed on skid row.

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Re: people are like music, etc....
written by Guest, January 20, 2006

NOVAK! Explain yourself damnit! You've seen the crittiques, now emerge from your sausage party at Penn State and respond. Your readers deserve at least that; they had to learn about your emotions for several paragraphs.
Thanks buddy. Bong a beer for me.

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C. Torey is very clever, leave him alone
written by Guest, January 22, 2006

Dear C. Torey, Don´t worry about all these nasty beasts who have been really cruel to you, they´re just jealous of your talent. Smart people like us are always persecuted and followed by strange men in black suits. I´m always being chased by evil people that want to medicate me and tell me I´m not really a Princess. They don´t understand us C. Torey! Anyway, I just wanted to tell you that I printed your beautiful story and then carefully cut out the shape of a small swan. I keep it under my pillow and when I feel the violent darkness in my head, I just read what you wrote. I call it my Torey swan saviour. Do you like swans? I do, and I like fire too. Ok, well your post proves I am not alone so thank you. Maybe we could be together?
Princess Britney of the Magic Unicorn Land.

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Spectator
written by Guest, January 23, 2006

This is simply attrocious, slagging off each other like this and insulting parents etc,is there any need for all this?

Each person is entitled to their own opinions and should not be crushed in this
manner. This is suppose to be about Brazil and the twilight world that exists in this country so visitors to this site should be thinking of ways and means to bring forth balance and equaity.

This destructive behaviour is making the situation even worse.If people want to live in a bubble of fantasy/ delusion they are entitled but they don't have to ram it down other peoples throats.

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Spectator?
written by Guest, January 23, 2006

Is your name C. Torey Novak?

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The Observer
written by Guest, January 23, 2006

No, and i dont want to get into this name thing. I am quite serious about what is happening in Brazil because it isn't right that all.

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Dear Mr. Observer
written by Guest, January 23, 2006

"Because it isn't right that all" -Learn how to write.

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Re: The Observer/Spectator
written by Guest, January 23, 2006

"If people want to live in a bubble of fantasy/ delusion they are entitled but they don't have to ram it down other peoples throats."

So wait, who lives in a bubble and who's ramming it down throats? I'm confused... Was that a sexual innuendo or something?

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The Observer
written by Guest, January 23, 2006

Does sex have to come into everything?

There is no innuendo i'm just saying that people are entitled to their own opinions and you don't have to agree if you don't want to. Thats all.

I do not want to argue with anyone right so direct this frustration into something constructive even sex since you have mentioned.

Please accept my sincere apologies for the spelling mistake because i am not perfect and accept that at times i do make genuine mistakes.The print is alittle small and at times i cant see OK

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The Inquizitor
written by Guest, January 23, 2006

Yeah, f**k spelling. But seriously, I enjoy how you try to sound all wise and compassionate. And it's great to read you repeating yourself throughout posts on this website like a cancer. The Observer: "We need to address these issues."; "This is not right what's going on in Brazil."; "Evrybody's entitled to their own opinion." I especially love how you keep telling people to be constructive but you won't offer your own advice without being paid (see post under John Fitzpatrick's Soao P. story). To me this can be translated to: you have no ideas, no advice- just self-righteous, repititious comments.

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The Observer
written by Guest, January 23, 2006

Not every one wants to go into this bitter
rhetoric just for the sake of it and to be honest i dont even want to upset you or anyone.

I am not going into this moaning and whingeing thing and i mean all what i have said. If you wish you can do that with whoever you want, but not me.

Everyone works in a different way and this is mine. I am compassionate about this cause and dont see the need to have behave like you slagging people off every second. If I have offended you then thats life. I am not offended by you in the least. You will understand in time

You say I have no ideas? You'd be surprised and shocked. I have been warned by friends not to release any ideas like before of which i lost out on over $1,000,000 so I have learnt from the previous mistakes i have made and i am not going to repeat that, understand.

Sorry if i have sounded repetitive and cancerous as you put it, or even self righteous. I prefer to deal direct and prove my point and then see the results emerge.

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What\'s going on?
written by Guest, January 24, 2006

Man, what's the deal with people these days? I don't understand how people can be so pessamistic. It boggles my mind. It's kind of funny in a way. I'm willing to bet that people like that are usaully miserable and can't seem to find the good in anything. I was an LDS missionary for two years down in Brasil and had a great experience. That doesn't mean I'm an expert about Brasil. I learned the language and I was engulfed in the culture, but I didn't have anything to gain financially while I was there, but I can say that my perspective is unique. Yea it wasn't easy and sure Brasil has its problems, but what country doesn't? So what's wrong about someone wanting to express the good things they experienced? Sure it was somewhat cheesy in places, but who cares. I just have to laugh when I read how pissed off people tend to be. Life's too short to look at everything in a negative way.

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The Observer
written by Guest, January 24, 2006

Thanks for your sound advice i was just trying to be optimistic and not pessamistic.

When i said i feel sorry for the Brazilians who are trapped in this situation i meant it- I am only being realistc!

I am not going to slag anyone off because i know where they're coming from and it is sometimes difficult when you are right in the middle of things and trapped in a no win situtation.Besides like you said ever country has its own problems althought maybe not as servere as Brazil.

Sometimes I get real SAD when I read these comments on this website but i don't want to make things any worse.If possible Brazilians should try to look at things outside of thier situation and see if any answers emerge.

Once again sorry to all those who feel offended by my comments I will leave it at that!

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The Observer
written by Guest, January 24, 2006

George Bush has been a blessing for the American people. He is moral, honest and has values that many Americans still cherish. He is a born-again Christian, which means he is going to heaven. His faith helps him to guide our country through rough times and practice "compassionate conservatism." Thank God George Bush is president.

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To The Observer
written by Guest, January 24, 2006

Dear Friend/The One who serves Ob,
Thank you for the sunshine that you sprinkle into the dark cave that is, my life. I believe you when you say you lost money, what was your idea? Did you invent the first aeroplane or the home computer or maybe the internet? I too lost money, it was I who thought of using dolphins as sea taxis but I didn´t patent it in time. I always read your multiple postings throughout this site and I´m glad that you always are consistently angry and confused like me. But be happy, there is another tormented soul amongst us and he is a Missionary man....he admits to being boggle minded (maybe the LSD?) and likes to laugh at people who are pissed off. Let us be together, join me, be happy and make the dancing fire! Stop staring at me and acknowledge C. Torey as our leader.
Princess Britney of the Magic Unicorn Land. Grrrr.

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The Observer
written by Guest, January 24, 2006

There is some much pessimism on this site. Please get over yourselves.
At least I am being honest.

P

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Prev. Post Ob Server
written by Guest, January 24, 2006

Oh dearest Obbie, you seem to be here as often as me.....we definitely should be together. I am in a special institution and have lots of free time to post. It´s theraputic and helps me to readjust to "normal" behaviour. What´s your excuse? I hope you´re not doing all these postings from a place of employment. That would be criminal.
I am sorry about your idea being stolen and that you missed out on all that money. You are a real loser aren´t you! Princess Britney of the Magic Unicorn Land

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Princess Britney of the Magic Unicorn La
written by Guest, January 25, 2006

So what kind of institution are you in? I have a hard time following your comments. Between dolphin sea taxis and dancing fire you kind of lost me, but it makes for a good laugh.

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The Observer
written by Guest, January 25, 2006

Please stay lost, mabe you will find yourself.

Have a good Day....

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...
written by Guest, January 25, 2006

Dear readers, just because I am officially certified insane and locked in a mental hospital does not mean I am mad! Angry maybe, but not mad! So, for my final comment on this subject I would like to scribe the famous words of John Lennon when he was confronted with the anti vegetable riots of 1969, "Please, ....give peas a chance.." And so I say to to all of you, give C. Torey a chance! He´s probably a bit like a pea, small, green, tasty and is hard to pick up with a fork.
Princess Britney of the magic....you know where.

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...
written by Guest, January 25, 2006

This site is full of self obsessed people.

Isn't this suppose to be a forum about Brazil?
Why are people so negative these days!

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The Observer
written by Guest, January 25, 2006

...I'm lonely, oh so lonely...

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f**kwits
written by Guest, January 31, 2006

there is a huge number of mentally challenged brazilians posting messages on this website. their posts are simplistic and dim-witted, but the bad grammar, spelling mistakes and general snivelling tone is amusing so i won't tell them to stop posting and play with their toys/ love tools instead. how about that idiot who thinks he had a million dollar idea? how deluded is he? post me some of your magic mushrooms friend.
i think we all know that brazil wont change in out lifetimes, maybe never. we certainly aren't going to make it a better place - we're too busy posting and reading the handiwork of brazilians which would embarrass a dyslexic black 3 year old. And it takes a lot to embarrass one of those!! so continue slagging.........

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indeed, what\'s more...
written by Guest, February 04, 2006

there are incredible amount of f**kwits in this WORLD. what do we do? buy the ticket, take the ride

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ho ho ho
written by Guest, February 05, 2006

the world is run by f**kwits. selfish bastards who only care about themselves and force everybody else to be bastards just in case they are dealing with those bastards. its a vicious circle but it's probably more vicious in brazil where it's dog eat dog. life is cheap and there's so little to lose in holding a gun to someone's head.
who gives a s**t? no one. we're just taking the ride even though we know it's crap. we keep hoping it'll get better but it wont.
so, f**k off brazilian and other f**kwits....who does that leave me with?

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This is the infamous Writer of what you
written by Guest, March 23, 2006

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To my readers...
written by Guest, March 23, 2006

Thank you. That is all I can say. You all leave me so utterly speechless. What can I say, even though some of you hate what I wrote, you all devotedly comment on it. Thank you. Written words are a powerful thing, this I do admit. There is a thing called free will, heard of it? Great. The very great thing about it, this free will, is that it allows you to do, see, say, write, or read whatever you want! What an idea... So about ramming any of what I wrote down any of your throats, thanks, but I can't take the credit for your big mouths. Anyway, I thought that I might write to you all, my dear critics... Until the next time... T+

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One more thing...
written by Guest, March 23, 2006

I want to thank all of you who do care with genuine capacity of your hearts. Because of you I write. Keep reading, all that you can. Thank you!

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Bolivian homie
written by Guest, March 23, 2006

i liked it...he doesnt mention anything bad about the country...i kno the guy personally hes cool...never judge a book by its cover as they say =P

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Oh my lands
written by Guest, April 18, 2006

The arrogant T. Novak thinks he's Bill Shakespeare. Pride cometh before the fall my over-confident little friend....

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hiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
written by hi, April 17, 2007

hi peoples how r u i fine if u ask so tty

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...
written by Me, June 10, 2007

Let me tell you something people. In the post where he said he was a spoiled rich kid, blah blah blah, he was angry with you and playing with your heads. The point of his story is that he is going through the initiation of growing up, which some of you evidently haven't done yet. Your attitudes are jaded and sad and it's no wonder you'll never have the experiences you might wish for. First you have to clean up your thinking, then you can have experiences that will touch your hearts. Right now you can't even find your hearts.

People sometimes do learn. Despite the lack of encouragement. I feel sorry for your children. Do you give them as much encouragement and hope as you do Toy? If you want the world to change, you have to start it with your very own self. If you like it painful, then you don't belong here. Wake up.

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